Feeling Lost and Alone in My Own Skin

I hope to reach the realm of people who are not of human descendants... I haven't been able to find anyone else like myself at all I feel like people are trying to find me because they know who I am and they are trying to catch me to take me somewhere for their own sake and I need my people to know they aren't alone if they try to catch you too. I can feel who I was in a past life was nothing short of a monster of sorts... I still feel like I see parts of myself in my past life and I am trying to escape with my "son" I feel like no medical facility will take me serious when I explain my condition I feel so judged and made fun of and I'm sick of it. one even told me I was on drugs and I can barely take my own meds because I can't trust them honestly so therefore I'm not on drugs but I feel so looked at and I feel like the more people look at me the more I can't trust them. I can see my past and know how I died and it's a vivid flashback and I remember the day very well. my voices are telling me I need to go back to that day but that day was centuries ago and I can't go back. but we are not alone.