Struggling to Find Motivation in Addiction Recovery

First and foremost, congratulations! Recovery is a very long, hard road to travel. But it is possible!! You can't depend on anyone to help you. You have to make the life you want. I promise I know how hard it can be to get out of bed, give yourself some grace and credit! You've made a HUGE accomplishment. Maybe your body needs the rest for now. If you can't get out of bed, find a book to read. A journal to do a daily "mind dump". Ask yourself the hard questions and get to know yourself better. You'll never be the old you. But you are a new you with new experiences to process and accept. You have to find a purpose. A hobby or interest. Start small like journaling. Or drawing. Find friends you can text just to chat. Drink water! Do a 10 minute tidy. Set an alarm for 10 minutes and do anything you can in that time frame ❤️ Remember you are amazing and so strong!!!

Being in recovery is hard, you're doing more than enough by focusing on that. Normal might look different day to day, I take everything one small step at a time. It sounds like you might benefit from support like people also in recovery. If you haven't, maybe tell your spouse what you need from them or send them stuff to read about supporting someone through recovery and chronic pain

I'm sorry you don't have the support system you need. I want to congratulate you for all of your hardwork and dedication to yourself. It takes a long time to get "back to normal" and sometimes that normal doesn't exist as it did before. But everyday you do something more for yourself, you are doing something you can be proud of and celebrate.