Feeling Stuck and Alone with Depression

Rant : does anyone ever convince themselves they arent depressed and that theyre being dramatic? right now its all i can think, like i got no reason to be depressed like no reason is good enough to me. i honestly dont know what to do anymore, i feel so stuck between im so tired and sad but i cant sleep because my mind is raising so loudly. im also very dizzy for some reason, ive had vertigo in the past and its like its happening again. my situation currently, i cant even go see a doctor, i cant afford it so im stuck knowing the things that could help me get better, i cant afford to get so like i got nothing i can do about it. cant talk to nobody, cant get medication to help, cant even calm down. nothing even cheers me up when im low so its like im so stuck like this and i feel like i got no reason to be like this but i am like this, i just want it to be different. i want to be better but im only getting worse. dont know what the point of this is but maybe im not alone in how i feel but i surely feel very alone in everything.