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VoodooHorizon

629d

[ topics of Sexual Trauma implied ] nobody has to respond to this but I am having more sexually traumatic dreams again and last night was one where other people in my dream were being hung because they were queer and instead of showing that I was queer I just told them I'd let them do anything with me and well, we know what happens then, but I just cannot get the thought of sexual things like that out of my head, like the thought of being r*ped or people of power doing stuff to me because I present as a man but don't have a penis. it's just becoming really frustrating especially when even my unconscious mind shows me those types of things. I really really want a sex therapist but I just feel like my "trauma" isn't valid. idk..

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    • TheBigSpook

      629d

      Your trauma is totally valid! Even though dreams aren’t real, they often feel real and can have lasting effects. Almost a year ago I started having nightmares again about my older brother raping me, chasing me around my empty house, me not being able to lock the doors fast enough or keep him out, running into dead ends, and no one in my family believing me when I told them what happened. Basically a spot on dream version of my childhood. I decided that was a sign from my subconscious that it was time to go back to therapy and start working on my trauma again. My therapist said something that made sense to me; the reason we have past traumas resurface when we are finally feeling balanced and whole and happy is because our mind recognizes that we’re in the healthiest place to be able to do the work to resolve those and heal from those traumas. Maybe this is your minds way of telling you it’s ready to start working through those traumas you’ve been holding on to because you’re finally in a safe enough space to do so. I definitely recommend a sex therapist! Or even a regular therapist that has experience with sexual abuse and ptsd.

    • TheBigSpook

      629d

      Your trauma is totally valid! Even though dreams aren’t real, they often feel real and can have lasting effects. Almost a year ago I started having nightmares again about my older brother raping me, chasing me around my empty house, me not being able to lock the doors fast enough or keep him out, running into dead ends, and no one in my family believing me when I told them what happened. Basically a spot on dream version of my childhood. I decided that was a sign from my subconscious that it was time to go back to therapy and start working on my trauma again. My therapist said something that made sense to me; the reason we have past traumas resurface when we are finally feeling balanced and whole and happy is because our mind recognizes that we’re in the healthiest place to be able to do the work to resolve those and heal from those traumas. Maybe this is your minds way of telling you it’s ready to start working through those traumas you’ve been holding on to because you’re finally in a safe enough space to do so. I definitely recommend a sex therapist! Or even a regular therapist that has experience with sexual abuse and ptsd.

    • GroceryEater

      629d

      Hi!! Your trauma is valid! Has anyone spoken to you in the way you are seeing it in your dreams?

      • VoodooHorizon

        629d

        @GroceryEater I was, basically, sought after and sexually used by some people who I thought were friends but only wanted me for my body. I was never really threatened, but I felt like I couldn't deny them either. I felt powerless because they were bigger men. and then was guilt tripped because I didn't want a relationship with them, and chose someone who I felt safe with instead. it was just a really scary situation.

        • GroceryEater

          629d

          @VoodooHorizon I sympathize with what you said. I felt the same way in my last relationship I didn’t feel I could safely leave and it emotionally traumatized me further. ❤️ Have you since left?

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