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gothcowboy

640d

I live with my boyfriend. As of late, i’ve been severely depressed and it has stopped me from cleaning up any mess whatsoever. I have empty cups, trash, and just stuff and clutter everywhere. He, understandably, gets in a bad mood when his room (our room) is messy. But I can’t help but feel awful. I want to do everything for him, but at the same time i wish he fully understood just how hard this is for me. It makes me want to spiral whenever he is in a bad mood because of something I did. It’s so hard to grasp, what do i do? I plan on cleaning up and making a schedule, but I’ve been saying that for months now.

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    • Quinzel

      639d

      @gothcowboy I totally understand where you're coming from. there's a lot of times where I don't want to discuss my mother who I live with the symptoms I'm experiencing because I don't want to make her feel guilty or somehow it's her fault. but I realize that without having those difficult conversations and letting her know where I'm at and my symptoms she doesn't know what's going on with me or how to react when I do certain things. perhaps one of the ways you can try and soften the blow of the conversation is by saying I totally understand that you didn't mean to do that but I'm just letting you know what is going on so this way you're informed and you're aware. a lot of times what I do if I kind of get a feeling that I'm going to run into a rough couple of weeks is I'll let my mom know hey you know I'm not feeling too great just to let you know I'm feeling kind of blue so it's going to be difficult for me for a while. I know those conversations are still always going to be difficult and I don't know what it's like to live with a boyfriend if I'm being 100% honest but I do know that living with other people you do have to have those open conversations with them when going through some of your symptoms. even though we're going through these emotions it does help to let others know what's going on with you cuz then they can try and help to somehow. like I said it's just what I try and do but I sincerely hope that everything goes well for you too. hope you feel better ❤️ and don't forget to be forgiving to yourself too,

    • mugs

      639d

      I know where you are coming from. But that clutter, mess is feeding your depression. You want to clean up for your boyfriend and that disappointment is feeding your depression. Start small, maybe picking up some trash, then you will get that sense of accomplishment and that will feed the motivation and then the depression will be gone for awhile.

    • LeighRose

      639d

      Maybe try writing him a letter about it? I saw that you said you feel that you get "too emotional" when you try to talk to him about it so a letter might help? It gives you time to think things out and fell less "on the spot" then a face to face conversation.

    • LaylaCallahan

      640d

      I get it it's the same thing with me and my boyfriend hears what helps me and I know its not the same for everyone start small take a few dishes to the sink (don't have to wash em just in the sink) next day a few pieces of trash and you will start to see progress and it will make you proud of yourself and soon it will help you feel the want to clean everything because it makes you happy being proud of yourself

    • ChristineD

      640d

      I'm do sorry. Keep trying.

    • ChristineD

      640d

      Totally understand where u r coming from. I too have the same problem. I'm messy and a clutter bug. When I'm not depressed I clean but when I'm not well I don't clean up much. TG, my partner understands and helps out. I'm so sorry ur partner doesn't get it. Try to talk to him??

      • gothcowboy

        640d

        @ChristineD whenever i talk about it, i get really emotional and he ends up feeling bad, and then i feel bad for making him feel bad, and it’s a cycle

        • Quinzel

          639d

          @gothcowboy I totally understand where you're coming from. there's a lot of times where I don't want to discuss my mother who I live with the symptoms I'm experiencing because I don't want to make her feel guilty or somehow it's her fault. but I realize that without having those difficult conversations and letting her know where I'm at and my symptoms she doesn't know what's going on with me or how to react when I do certain things. perhaps one of the ways you can try and soften the blow of the conversation is by saying I totally understand that you didn't mean to do that but I'm just letting you know what is going on so this way you're informed and you're aware. a lot of times what I do if I kind of get a feeling that I'm going to run into a rough couple of weeks is I'll let my mom know hey you know I'm not feeling too great just to let you know I'm feeling kind of blue so it's going to be difficult for me for a while. I know those conversations are still always going to be difficult and I don't know what it's like to live with a boyfriend if I'm being 100% honest but I do know that living with other people you do have to have those open conversations with them when going through some of your symptoms. even though we're going through these emotions it does help to let others know what's going on with you cuz then they can try and help to somehow. like I said it's just what I try and do but I sincerely hope that everything goes well for you too. hope you feel better ❤️ and don't forget to be forgiving to yourself too,

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