Feeling Suicidal and Need Help

@joshkels thank you for replying back I just really need someone. I am losing it

@joshkels I feel so alone and hopeless right now and pretty much every day is a continous nightmare, i can't deal with the intrusive thoughts my brain is tormenting me with my ex father of my child cheating on me and I can't deal with the pain anymore I feel like there is no future and I keep praying to God to come save me but I feel this is just my rate and this world was never meant for me, I feel so unlovable my confidence in myself is completely destroyed and I keep thinking about what he did with her and how he felt and how he chose her over me and I can't do this anymore I am losing my mind. The PTSD and OCD thoughts are driving me insane. I have a baby to care for and it hurts me leaving him but I feel like he will be better off without me, there is nothing left inside of me I wouldn't ever be a good mother