Trapped in a Familiar Situation: Married with a Baby

Im just scared of losing custody of my son cuz of my struggles but I do feel iv proved that I am the only one caring for him and he is special needs so it's a bit difficult living with someone who can help but won't

My mom did that. Coming from the child's perspective, its 1000x better for you and your child if you get the courage to get a divorce.

I understand what you mean. Ive wondered the same thing myself a time or two. I think mine is just the irrational fear that I'll repeat my parents mistakes. But if you really feel that way, its always better to divorce than stay unhappily married imo. You want your baby to have a healthy environment