BipolarOkie

184d

I've dealt with depression since I was a young teen and now that I'm older it doesn't seem to get any better. I've tried several medications and combos of different ones. I do good most days but then there's weeks I don't even want to get out of bed and deal with life in general. I suck at being a friend anymore cause I don't want to talk to anyone. I tell my therapist I'm fine out if fear them lock me up again if I tell them how I really feel. How do you cope day to day dealing with trauma from your past?

Depression

Generalized pain

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  • vespera

    184d

    I know it's a really common answer but getting a journal can really help. I write down all my depressing thoughts and then sort of collage over them. It helps me to acknowledge my "negative" feelings while also overwriting those messages with "positive" ones. It won't solve the problem but being creative helps me a lot. I can send you some examples if you're interested, it's a little hard to explain. I don't do journals like a lot of people do and I end up glueing a LOT of weird things in my journal (receipts, med bottle labels, syringe wrappers)

    • BipolarOkie

      184d

      I'm horrible about keeping a journal. I'm always afraid someone will find it and read through it then use it against me when they see fit. I just can't seem to find anyone to be completely honest with about how I feel and things that bother me

  • ConfusedTeddyy

    184d

    My psych np is having me trying a therapy called ECT. It looks scary but there’s a lot of good work behind and good results. It’s safe and effective in most patients. I am in the same boat as you. I just finally broke down recently and told them how I actually feel.

    • BipolarOkie

      184d

      I'll check it out. I haven't spoken to anyone in the last month cause my therapist has been sick and she usually helps me at least clear my head once a week.

  • poodlelover28

    184d

    Same! Most of the time I'm okay but when I'm not okay it's really really bad...

  • MelissaDF

    183d

    ECT is great. It helped me so much! In fact I want to try another round but the drawback for me is the hospitalization. Here where I live you have to be admitted to psych ward and start ECT. I have kids that stay with me all summer long so hospitalization is not really a good option for me right now.

  • PrescribedBliss

    183d

    I have no advice because I'm essentially the same. I ALWAYS say I'm fine. I currently have a 2nd/3rd degree burn and the pain is insane and I still say "I'm fine" on top of all mental crap

  • BipolarOkie

    182d

    What is ECT? You have to be committed to do it?

    • MelissaDF

      177d

      it’s electro convulsive therapy. you are under anesthesia and receive electrical impulses to your brain Where I live yes you have to be an inpatient in the hospital to start treatments.

      • BipolarOkie

        177d

        thank you so much for explaining this. I will ask my therapist if she thinks it's a good idea for me to try. I'm willing to try anything to just feel better

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