Living with Herpes and the Trauma of Sexual Assault

I have had herpes for about 30 years now. Has anyone experienced it going internally? I had a partner who was angry with me because I would not marry him. Rather than telling he was hurt or upset. I was very drunk and was spending the night Rather than drive home. I woke up during the night which at the time I thought was a dream. I realized a sharp pain in my anus for lack of a better term . I tried to turn over and was being held down. So I could not see what was going on. so I asked and he said something I am not sure what. and I black out again. The next day I went to work and I passed gas and messed myself. I had to go home to change. it was so humiliating. Needless to say I have had extreme pain in my anus ever since. I believe I was sodamized that night because I was not fully aware of what was going on. What should I do?