Feeling the Need for Attention and Conversation During a Difficult Time

I feel this way also. I just hate being alone with my thoughts rn cuz my mental state is suffering and I’m vulnerable rn. I need normalcy. Usually I’m fine and deal well on my own. But everything is just so unbearable lately. I need a break from me sometimes but there’s no one or nowhere I really trust to just be normal and not pry. They don’t actually care or want to help, they’re just nosy usually. I want to talk and get help just not from people I don’t trust.

Why? Because this is so hard. And a community of any kind is important right now. My dad just passed last month and I am still trying to rebuild mine

I've cut off tons of people because they unintentionally trigger my ptsd and I freak out. It's embarrassing and painful and I'm sure they don't like it either. I long for friends but I've become afraid of people because I'm sure I'll irritate them and they'll go away and that hurts.

I find myself doing this and sharing things that are "too much" for people and I have a strong feeling that no one likes me. I want a friend so bad but for some reason I can't keep them.

Me too. I sometimes can't stop talking and I get faster and louder and then really upset. Sometimes I'll do this with a complete stranger and it's soooo embarrassing. Definitely gets worse with stress. It's much better when I talk with my therapist or understanding friends. I feel less desperate to talk. Cptsd sucks and I feel like regular people don't truly believe you can't help your behavior sometimes. I used to be very social but I isolate now because I'm scared of what I'll say. I'm doing ok right now but it always comes back with stress.