Confused about my feelings for a friend

I really like this guy at my school. I've known him off and on since second grade and even then I used to have a huge crush on him. It's like every time I think the feelings are gone they just always comes back. I get so nervous and anxious around him, but it's so weird to me that it's like these feelings motivate me in a way? I haven't been as depressed or upset since I recently realized my feelings for him again. We've never dated or been more than friends and part of me knows we might not ever be any more than just that, but I want to ask him to prom or on a date for the hell of it. I graduate May 2023 so it feels like I should at least give it a shot,, but I don't know. I just needed to get this all off my chest because it's so confusing but euphoric at the same time 🥲