Dealing with Bottom Dysphoria: Seeking Community Support

Pardon the bluntness of the question, but who gives a fuck who’s put off by YOUR personal concept of gender? It’s all made up anyway. I am really sorry that you’re in that spot, though.

Yo same!!!! Almost! I identify as having no gender at all but I DESPERATELY want a functioning penis. I feel ya.

I have this exact experience! from a very young age I often felt that i should have more male-aligned genitals despite having no problem with being perceived as female. It's been suggested to me to go on T, since bottom growth is on of the first and most rapid changes, and consider metoidoplasty, which is a much less extensive trans-masculine surgery than phallo. The surgery modifies the existing bottom growth from T to look more prominent and has several modular options such as urethra rerouting, vaginectomy, and scrotal prosthesis (all optional in any combination)

I think what it shows the most is that you've got an understanding of gender that is a lot deeper than the vast majority of folks - Cis or otherwise - think they do. Like, for my labels, I usually tell people I'm FTM, or just "a guy" because that's already more complicated than they're used to. If I can go deeper than that, I tell them I'm Genderqueer. A little deeper and I explain how I identify as a Queer transmasculine person. But for the rare few who can go that deep, I can explain how my gender identity is complicated and nuanced, how I mostly identify beyond gender, have a complicated and performative relationship with feminity, and that at the end of the day my real pronouns are actually Xe/Xyr, but if you're going to misgender me, I'd rather you recognize me as None Gender with Left Boy. ...Or, TL;DR version, gender is a lot more complex than people maks it out to be. We all just are using the labels that convey as much accurate info as quickly as possible and that work the best.

Everyone can have body dysphoria, but it varies for everyone. This would be something you should talk with a good quality therapist about who specializes in this area.