Struggling with Family and Relationship Issues

If at any moment you feel you have gotten to the point of no return, please, call 911, and tell them, they will care, and they will come to you… Have you had any professional help?

I think the hardest part was I told my stepmom that when my depression gets really bad and I get suicidal. She asked "Now why would you ever wanna do that. It's just being selfish and thinking of yourself" I told her that when my depression gets that bad all I can think about is making the pain end... Honestly? My depression has made me think of suicide a lot lately and it seems like they don't notices I'm asking for help

Everything. Noone truly understands anything I'm feeling. No matter how much you try to explain something it won't ever stick. Unless someone has gone through or is going through a situation, they have no idea and can't even truly imagine what you might be feeling. The thoughts and feelings has no words to them I am just lost within a sea of thoughts just trying to survive and do what we humans are told we must do. All I really want is to have some free time and to be happy. Why is happiness soo difficult for most. Oh Soma in the brave new world. It would almost make life that much easier to bear. (Great book reference for those who just don't know)

I’m so sorry for what you are going through. I’m not a professional, but what I’ve learned and observed during my life and own experience dealing with anxiety is that it isn’t straightforward or simple. I don’t believe there’s such a thing as pulling yourself together in regards issues like the ones your describe. La Lately, I’ve been dealing with anxiety related to health issues, sickness, viruses. I went through a divorce, and I remember asking her that I didn’t want to leave her home, and still, she asked me to leave. I felt abandoned and devastated.