Faking My Own Death: A Cry for Help or a Psychotic Thought?

I have and no not psycho

Yes

Not necessarily planned out, but I sometimes have certain scenarios play out in my mind and think "what if...?" If that's what you're getting at. I don't want to say that it's "normal" and I obviously don't know the full extent of it, but just know you're not alone, and if you ever want to DM someone I'm available.

I get suicidal a lot thinking about it because I want to test them and think they only show it when you're gone and usually seems they don't now

Is it normal to think of things like that?

I think about that a lot

No I do it everyday. Even small things like getting into a car accident or breaking a bones. Just to see how people would act.