Feeling Lonely and Overwhelmed at 40

I'm having a very different time. filling very tiered of trying. I'm about to be 40. and I'm toyed of life. what's wrong with me. I just want to fill loved have and friends. but I'm all way looking for the fall. who wants to be around someone like that? the fucked up part is I'm right about 3/4 of the time. do not want to be. I need and we all need love congestion and a friend some times. I know they call me with there problems in life in there time of need. But who dose that 4 u or me? Dose anyone get TX and calls out of the blue just to see how u r? and to say I love u? I wish someone did but most of all wish to be loved by a stranger just trying to make it like myself. I Have see my wife 4 weeks totel this year. had sex even fewer times. it's putting a lot of strain on me as a man turning 40 and as reluctant Husben for a Scent Time. having Ben abuse by themes Beutiful weman in my life. all ways be leaving I was in the wrong. it must be me. Right? even if it's not? I cloud not beleav that. but I'm trying still. if anyone can or would be willing to help me even with just a nice word I'd appreciate it. PORTER TEXAS