Struggling with BPD and Schizophrenia

Not to be contrary but you do seem to have symptoms in common with bpd. Trying to drop a stable relationship due to suspicion, is called splitting and its very common in bpd. It means your partner is your fp and you're seeing him as either a perfect angel or a devious villain depending on the situation. Ironically this is a sign the relationship is probably going pretty well. The better a relationship is, the more freaked out it makes us, because there is a bigger and bigger disaster if we lose them... So we try to lose them on purpose to get it over with and have some modicum of control. We resent the power they have over us and fear them using it to manipulate us. Let me guess, you immediately regret it when you push him away, right? That's how bpd is. If any of this sounds familiar, this is your sign. And if you do have bpd, your arsenal should include affirmations, deep breathing, walking away to calm down during stress with him, and thinking carefully about what you know vs what you assume. Especially affirmations. Your self-esteem being built up will help you a lot with your partner. As for your family, I'm sorry, there is no solution to bad family. But you can at least change therapists, or tell them! You're allowed to say "I won't talk to my mom so don't ask." And next time someone asks if you've taken your meds, tell them you'd prefer if they said hello. They deserve to deal with the fact that they're making you uncomfortable. If it were me, I probably would have responded with "I don't know, have you taken YOUR meds? Stop being gross." to see if they come up with new dialogue or are stuck as NPCs. You don't owe them a straight answer. Your meds are your business. Good luck!