Feeling Trapped: Parenting Struggles and Financial Woes

Up late wishing I had a job,my own money,my own car too, so I could help pay bills and buy my kids and myself things i/they want/need 😩.....I hate being/feeling as if I'm stuck in this position I'm in. 🤦🏽‍♀️ I miss the hard working person I used to be last year,miss being able to help provide and buy whatever I or my kids want. I hate being stuck in the house so much feeling like I will never get a break from my kids and even if I do I'd have to rush home because I'd have my oldest daughter that I'd have to tend to(if I can't get her grandparents-NCP parents, to keep her) I hate feeling that the only time I would be able to forcibly get any kinda a break or my own money is after I receive my money from financial aid from going to online class for two months 🤦🏽‍♀️😩 I feel trapped in as if I'm in a never ending repeat of my life stuck home with all my kids. Feeling like I have NO friends or family (my family is so toxic I can't really hangout or talk to them about certain things) I hate the feeling of being alone dealing with what I'm dealing with 😢😩