Feeling Like a Disappointment

*VENT* I am just so sick and tired and furious at myself. I'm such a waste of space. I got fired from my job, I quit my first one because I hated everyone and there was so much pressure, and my mom made me feel like I couldn't handle it. And I'm scared she's right, It's like I can't handle anything. I'm failing all of my classes, I'm overweight, my rooms a mess, my anxiety is at it's highest, and I feel so awful. I've been lying to everyone about how I've been, even my therapist and psychologist. my family doesn't deserve such a disappointment like me. I keep disappointing them over and over again. i keep thinking everything would just be better if I was dead. one less mouth for my family to feed anyways