Pushing People Away

I just started dating someone new after ending my last relationship a few months ago, thinking I would find happiness with someone else... but I lose interest with people really fast. Relationships are a short term happiness for me it seems like. I'm to the point where I don't even know why I bother.

Thats how im feeling now like i have a girlfriend and she wanted to spend the night today but i gave her a bogus excuse cause i dont want to be around her is not like im mad at her or anything is just that when i get home from work today im gonna be tiredand the onlything i want to do issleep

Depression definitely kills my motivation for doing things with friends and sometimes even family. There are days I'd rather just feel safe inside at home.

100% this. Then I feel lonely and try to be around ppl then I'm like nope, just kidding, I'm good, bye! It's frustrating.

I know how it feels to have depression.i have been living with depression since the birth of my first daughter back in 1998

Yes. Except I don't have kids. I've never been able to hold a relationship longer than a year and now the only people I like seeing are my cousins. At home I just want to sleep the day away because I don't know what I'm doing with my life