Same, I've been screaming so loud inside. It's like feeling trapped and emotionless. No one understands what I say.

I feel like that too but I don't know how to help it.. its so hard..

I really feel this quite a bit. My solution was to force myself to do the things I like alone. Find interest or hobbies of my own, no matter how difficult, and do them without the presence or validation of others, no matter how difficult. The big thing for me was forcibly removing the external validation, even though it was super difficult. That's not the answer for everyone but it was for me.

Oh my God it's like you read my mind. I could've written this.

I'm still trying to do this. I try to make myself just go out and do things and try to make the distinction if I'm doing it because I like it or because I got the idea from a favorite person or a character I'm fixated on at the moment. I find the more spontaneous I can be with something the greater chance that it's more core personality (whoever that is) that likes it.

I completely relate. I had to isolate. In a healthy way i think. Lol I found activities that i could do for free and alone and that challenged me. I go kick a hacky sack alone, it something physical that clears my head dndv i can progress in