You are not your BPD. Dig deep and get in tune with yourself, understand yourself more, work on your triggers, work on being better. When I was diagnosed/introduced to it even being a THING, sooo many things started making sense to me, but things also got worse. Once I managed to calm down and start working on/understand myself, things slowly started getting better. It isn’t easy! But it’s definitely worth it. I went from raging borderline ready to give up on life to having been in remission for quite some time now and I love it. What about your BPD is getting you kicked out?