Struggling to Keep it Together

To me, this says time to go talk to a professional. Possibly meds. Full physical check up as well. I've been where you are. There is relief. I still have to work at being even...but it's so much better than it was

You're right. I've done that and It is helpful. And I do have some peace in the midst of the sadness. But there are more often, moments that are heavy and overwhelming.

Find the source of your feelings and break down the facts of the issue. Find pros and cons to the issue. Sometimes the slightest tweak makes a world of difference.