Losing My Home and Friends After My Husband's Death

Got good news! So I called on the possible apartment with HUD today and so did the people who own the apartments. HUD thinks that this tiny one bedroom apartment will be good for me and my dog. This due to my ex-girlfriend leaving me. I can't stay in the two bedroom as you all know because. I no longer qualify for it and my rent has gone drastically up. They do the inspection of it tomorrow for health and safety. The apartments are supported with HUD already. They just want to make sure that I will be safe there with all of my disabilities. Because where I am at currently the rent is too high by myself and I have to pay gas and electric. Whereas this tiny apartment is strictly electric. I should be happier there safer there in a quiet place. Where I can grieve the passing of my husband. I just hope that everything will be better there for me and my little chiweenie. Due to losing all my friends after losing my husband, I have become an absolute shut-in or only. I talk to my dog and my one and only friend I have left. I feel empty inside lonely and feel like no one cares about me all. I've ever wanted was to keep friends. But I have trouble keeping them. Because well, I'm a very quiet introvert. I'm a wallflower and nobody understands that. Only my best friend and my husband did. My ex-girlfriend never understood me. What she's done to me, my husband's memory, and our dog has completely devastated me. She never loved me, my husband, or my dog. I can't believe I trusted her! That my husband and I trusted her! Before he passed- we did everything we could to make her happy! But it wasn't enough. Even while my husband was in the hospital fighting for his life with interstitial lung disease she was found cheating on him! My husband passed away thinking that his girlfriend, our girlfriend loved him! But I guess it wasn't true. I don't care if she had cheated on me. But she shouldn't have cheated on the man we both loved. He suffered his entire life with debilitating disabilities. She KNEW this and when he passed and I had found this out. I gave her graciously a second chance. But apparently she didn't care and continue to keep cheating on me. Now because of her- I have to leave the two bedroom house that we got together through HUD. Now I'm moving to a tiny apartment with my reborn dolls AKA therapy dolls. I have to start a-new all over again. I don't know if I'm going to be able to take my queen size bed either. Because this apartment is upstairs and I don't know if we're going to be able to get my bed up the stairs. The stairs are curving stairs and my bed is quite huge and heavy. So I might end up losing my bed and have to sleep on a blow up mattress. But I guess a blow up mattress is better than nothing. Plus, having a bad medical day. Ugh, rotten egg burps when I eat just normal food. The only thing that seems to stop them is Pepto. I'm just fed up with life in general right now.