I have night terrors. well, it's a mix of lucid dreams an...

I have had horribly morbid dreams. Like the absolute worst thing you can think of but in a dream and it feels real like it's actually happening. I won't state the most morbid one but I'll tell the one that affected me the most because it was more vivid. Don't read this if you get creeped out easily. This was the second time I had this dream. I was at a grocery store with my mom after prom. I went down an aisle and at the end there was an evil spirit haunting that aisle specifically and I had this incident already but I somehow forgot and went down the aisle again and had the same exact thing happen to me again, except it lasted longer because I chose to stay in the dream this time. The first time, the spirit possessed me but I then I woke myself up so it wouldn't continue. The second time, I chose to stay because this was my only outlet to express my emotions since I was scared. During this time I felt really trapped in life and I never expressed emotions and sometimes couldn't even feel them, so when I had a dream where I felt terror and pain, I stayed because I just wanted to feel something and let out what I couldn't express in real life. In the dream, the spirit's possession over me got stronger and stronger. I was motionless, no control over my body. I never felt so much terror before. It had a hold on me to the point I couldn't even breathe. I tried to scream for help, but since I couldn't breathe, I couldn't scream. In real life I was hyperventilating really badly and my eyes were open while in the dream. I could see my room and I could see that I was partially sitting up angled towards my room away from the wall, as if I was trying to get away from something in my bed, like I desperately trying to escape, but I couldn't and I was stuck in that position. I could hear my sister in the background sounding nervous and calling my name, but I wanted to let out that panicked feeling that I never could in real life for just a little longer. It got worse. The spirit was right in front of me as if I could almost see it but I couldn't. I was so panicked I started to dissociate in the dream. Since I was trying to scream in my dream, but couldn't breathe, I started whisper screaming in real life instead of screaming normally. That's when my sister started sounding more urgent, and scared. I would've continued the dream for longer, but my sister was getting scared, so I woke myself up. She said she never heard someone so panicked before. Every time I have a dream like that, and I start severely hyperventilating, she says it sounds extremely panicked like nothing else, there's so much terror in my breathing itself.