Dealing with a Toxic Parent and Panic Attacks

My narcissistic mother also does the smear campaign a lot. She tells so many lies to people (my younger brother) mainly family and she's got my younger brother hating me. But anytime I have emailed him (as he doesn't wish to talk to me over the phone) I can plainly see that he is doing the same exact thing our mother is doing to me as he talks to me the way she does. Plus, they've been spying on me as my brother (with our mothers a proval) has put cameras inside the house i live in since it does belong to my mother. And there were cameras in the last place I lived in that belonged to her because there was something of mine I had to hide of mine and one day when I happen to have her over for dinner some months later I went to get that item I hid from her and it was gone. She later on admitted that she stole it. How in the world would she of known I had that item hidden? She also knew everything that I was doing and saying. She's an extremely EVIL person.

My poor Narc/histrionic Mother; only poor because her Narc Mother was waaaaay worse and I even told my mom idk how she survived my grandma because I would have totally offed myself. It's not an easy thing to deal with. It's great when I am made to feel sooooo toxic because im too blunt or I don't do something that doesn't revolve around her. I can't trust my mother either, not does she listen to me since she is so self absorbed in her delusional fantasy with her fake adopted daughter she met over the internet who literally is roleplay/emotional catfishing my mother and she doesn't believe any evidence I show to back up that this person is lying to her.

I live with my mom who has displayed covert narcissist tendencies, especially when I went on bouts to self medicate. Now that I'm sober I see it come out in superficial ways but it's still there and I still have to come to terms with feeling like I never had a good example growing up. My faith has really changed me tho, and I know if you begin praying for her, there's no way you can stay the same. She might, but you won't. 🖤

I’m sorry you’re dealing with this. I also grew up with a narcissistic mother; I empathize. Please feel free to PM me anytime. If you’re interested in reading materials I can recommend, let me know. You are WONDERFUL!! 💖 Don’t believe the gaslighting.

Yes, I have two narcissistic people in my life...my mom and my older brother and I just broke up with my narcissistic ex boyfriend so I know how you feel.

Feel free to pm me