Struggling with Self-Harm and Suicide: Need Advice

Do not call 911, don't do it. Cops are the last thing you need. Simply express to your therepist what is happening and how serious it is or go to the ER to ask for help.

I've been where you are and I'd suggest admitting yourself for a while. It's not forever but you seem like you're in a pretty dangerous place and if something set you off and you tried to commit again you might not get another chance to let therapy work. Going inpatient can be a good thing, sometimes we just need to be in a safe place where we're protected from ourselves for a bit while we get a little more stable. And you can always continue with mental health professionals while you're inpatient. I hope you start feeling better soon ❤️

For me therapy does work, but you need to find the right therapist for you. Therapy might take a little longer than you might think, when I first went to therapy I was sure that I was fixed after 4 or so months, but I realized that a lot of depression is rooted deep and takes a while to change what you programmed yourself to do. I'm very sorry to read all the things you go through, but you are not alone and I do believe that there will be one day that you'll be better, don't hesitate to ask for help or if you wanna chat is be happy to be a shoulder for you.

I've been in this situation the best thing to do is if its bad like this, to go straight to a hospital emergency room and explain that you need help, you can even call 911 as well

I'm also on meds and it just got upped last week