Feeling Out of Control: My Mental Health Struggles

That sounds a lot like some kind of disassociation mixed with low impulse control and maybe even intrusive thoughts? It can be dangerous and scary but try not to freak out too much and try to work your way up to telling your therapist, they'll probably be able to help or refer you to someone who can help.

This definitely reminds me of dissociation mixed with poor impulse control. I personally struggle with this combination and it's life-threatening at times. I agree, they should definitely look into dissociation!!

I haven’t had this exact experience, but if you haven’t before, you might want to consider looking up dissociation. And when you feel comfortable or able to, it’s definitely very worth it to talk to your therapist about! These types of symptoms are not as unusual as you might think, but it can be really scary or upsetting!

To me it's like a battle in my head that I've been struggling with but am aware

I kinda resonate with this so you are not alone