i completely understand- and it's hard because even saying "i need a moment" can be perceived differently than we intent it to be taken. maybe it would be a good idea (if it's safe and you feel supported) to talk to your boss/management about this to create accommodations- or if there are a select couple of coworkers who you trust and communicate with often, maybe you could disclose this to them so you can come up with a way to better communicate with them in times of high anxiety. i'm sorry you're having to navigate this in a work environment, i know it's hard to do- but you can do this 💚