AuntBeeDoesGames

210d

I ended up in the ER because my pain levels were insurmountable. the nurse had this irritated attitude the whole time she was questioning me about the norm what meds are you on what surgeries did you have blah blah...anyways...so I'm laying there in my bed and I'm watching this same nurse gossiping and cackling then saying you know she had 7 kids?! I didn't understand the rest of what they said but...that was very unprofessional....and my doctor says I have bone spurs in my hips and arthritis but still hasn't set up the appointment with a pain management doctor cuz they probably won't take me because all I have out here to actually help my pain to tolerable levels is marijuana and they expect it to be out of my system before they can help me with pain meds...I finish my stash at 10pm then next day at 6:30ish I'm in agonizing pain....and I'm expected to take my two kids to two different schools and pick them up... at 8am and 9 am then at 3pm and 4pm pick them up...
this is not a life to me. I slept all day Sunday to escape my pain cuz I was out of weed and that was the only place I could find relief...me sleeping through it.
I am so over hurting so much and doctors not doing much about it and then treat me like an addict...if not wanting to be in pain makes me a pill seeking addict I guess they got it right.
I'm done with this town they don't care about how pain affects the psyche obviously...or they would really give me the time of day without judgment...I'm about to just get off all my meds and say forget it...it's not worth it to me....tired of being under the care of power tripping doctors they have the relief I desperately need but they won't give it cuz marijuana users are addicts I guess.
stupid
bout to lose insurance anyway getting a divorce after 18 yrs of marriage and being a stay at home mom since 2002 is making it next to impossible to get a job...I'm going to college to get degree in it tech will graduate Feb 2023 and will be helped to get a job I can hopefully physically do. bursitis in both hips and both shoulders is also making it difficult to get any job because what can I do that doesn't require me to use my arms and shoulders and hips...this is so dumb and I don't have enough work credits to get disability SMH. I am going to move in with my best friend on and off since 1993/94 year of school. but I want to contribute to finances someway some how and it's not looking good so far.
I guess I would deserve to be on the street if push came to shove.
anyways so over it! rant over!

Generalized pain

Amitriptyline

Fibromyalgia (FM)

Chronic Generalized pain

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  • Red42

    210d

    🙏 🙏 🙏

  • shamprock

    210d

    First of all, you're worth it. I read your entire rant. You are worth my time. It sounds like there is a plan for the next step, even though it's out-of-focus for now, it's there. Breathe. Thank you for sharing! Also, we all know we're not the stereotypes the professionals can pretend we are...

    • Lifesaver350

      210d

      I smoke pot, you are so right... it definitely helps more then people realize. I'm always here to listen. Just remember, you are strong even though you don't think so... Things have a way of working out. Just remember to breathe. 😥❤️

  • shamprock

    210d

    And I'm so, so sorry your marriage is ending. That seems to be the catalyst for some other challenges.... I will definitely keep you in my prayers 💕

  • Angela82

    210d

    💕🙏💕

  • Jabe

    210d

    ✋pot help my muscles ease up and amitriptyline

    • Lifesaver350

      210d

      I take 50 mg of amitriptyline every night before bed. Sometimes I will take 2 Tylenol PM. Doesn't always take all the pain away, but I can say definitely takes the edge off enough for me to be somewhat comfortable.

  • JustRachelle

    210d

    I’m so sorry you’re going through this … fibromyalgia is already hard enough to have to deal with people like that… I hope you have the opportunity to move away from that town and seek new doctors maybe that will help… nobody truly understands how we deal with this pain until it happens to them.

  • shamprock

    210d

    I also utilize cannabis! I support its use!

  • moonquail

    210d

    ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

  • Rayfizz

    210d

    💕 🙏 💕

  • Debra

    210d

    I hear you loud and clear. I care and understand what you feel . Your summarization of how we are treated are dead on andNOT our fault. The system created us to feel this way by treating our pain with pharmaceuticals ! I have stopped eating processed foods. I try to eat mostly organic and home grown foods. If that is possible for you do it! I feel a ton better. Not all my pain is gone but much better. I rarely take anything for my pain. Swimming,sauna, gym, and setting your mind at peace there are also caplets and gummies that help Turmeric, ginger for my stomach. Teas that can help relax your tension which brings pain. Music that soothes your soul. I hope this helps you. 💕

  • AwesomeRed

    210d

    I'm totally thinking of trying weed! But I wanted it to be my last resort. Allergic to amitriptyline.What exactly does it help? Not really wanting the high just the pain to go away or at least let up! I've been through a divorce and yes it was hard at but after awhile you will be happy and at peace again! It gets easier! Promise! Congrats on going back to school that's so awesome! I'm proud of you!Praying for blessings,healing and Joy for you!

    • Lifesaver350

      210d

      all the amitriptyline does for me is it helps me stay asleep & has prevented my muscles from spasms from the fibromyalgia. I have never taken it during the day. I take it right before I go to bed.

      • AwesomeRed

        210d

        oh ok! Does the weed stop the pain and if so like how long?

  • Denali

    209d

    First, you are worthy of kindness and caring. Second, find a new doctor. Take the time to research a doctor with knowledge and UNDERSTANDING of FMS. I called around and asked a lot of questions. It was worth it. Third, complete a comment card (online or paper) and call out that nurse. That is poor behavior. You don't deserve that when you go in for help. Stay strong! Once you find a good doctor, things will change.

  • LadyTauriel

    209d

    I didn't have the work credits for disability/SSDI but I was eligible for SSI. Google SSI lawyers near you and look for the ones that only get paid if you win. Regardless of how much you do get, the lawyers are only allowed to take 20% of it. ER doctors that care are so rare that it does make it to where a lot of times I'll stay at home and just be miserable in my own bed instead of miserable in a hospital bed. You are worthy of care.

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