Struggling with Chronic Pain and Unprofessional Medical Care

I ended up in the ER because my pain levels were insurmountable. the nurse had this irritated attitude the whole time she was questioning me about the norm what meds are you on what surgeries did you have blah blah...anyways...so I'm laying there in my bed and I'm watching this same nurse gossiping and cackling then saying you know she had 7 kids?! I didn't understand the rest of what they said but...that was very unprofessional....and my doctor says I have bone spurs in my hips and arthritis but still hasn't set up the appointment with a pain management doctor cuz they probably won't take me because all I have out here to actually help my pain to tolerable levels is marijuana and they expect it to be out of my system before they can help me with pain meds...I finish my stash at 10pm then next day at 6:30ish I'm in agonizing pain....and I'm expected to take my two kids to two different schools and pick them up... at 8am and 9 am then at 3pm and 4pm pick them up... this is not a life to me. I slept all day Sunday to escape my pain cuz I was out of weed and that was the only place I could find relief...me sleeping through it. I am so over hurting so much and doctors not doing much about it and then treat me like an addict...if not wanting to be in pain makes me a pill seeking addict I guess they got it right. I'm done with this town they don't care about how pain affects the psyche obviously...or they would really give me the time of day without judgment...I'm about to just get off all my meds and say forget it...it's not worth it to me....tired of being under the care of power tripping doctors they have the relief I desperately need but they won't give it cuz marijuana users are addicts I guess. stupid bout to lose insurance anyway getting a divorce after 18 yrs of marriage and being a stay at home mom since 2002 is making it next to impossible to get a job...I'm going to college to get degree in it tech will graduate Feb 2023 and will be helped to get a job I can hopefully physically do. bursitis in both hips and both shoulders is also making it difficult to get any job because what can I do that doesn't require me to use my arms and shoulders and hips...this is so dumb and I don't have enough work credits to get disability SMH. I am going to move in with my best friend on and off since 1993/94 year of school. but I want to contribute to finances someway some how and it's not looking good so far. I guess I would deserve to be on the street if push came to shove. anyways so over it! rant over!