Always remember you are beautiful no matter what!! I'm similar situation. I lost 30 lbs and gained back some and also struggle with self esteem and I have bipolar depression. You are working hard, give yourself some credit. What helped me lose weight before was eating an early dinner, drinking caffeinated teas and exercising (at gym). I used to love going the Crunch gym. I love their sauna but don't know if they have that now during pandemic. In 2020 I lost weight by exercising a lot and I think the protein powder helped. Hope this helped. You're doing great!!

If it helps I’ve been breaking ladders and physical therapy equipment since I was 14 lol. I’m down 50 pounds but I’ve still got another 100 to go. Sometimes I get sad and gain 10 of it back then I get happy again and lose it again. It’s not a straight road my friend but there are lots of people on it with you even if you can’t see them around the bend. Best of luck!