Struggling with Depression, Anxiety, and BPD

I have been clinically depressed (BP2) since I was 7 (and my mother died and my father became abusive). I was diagnosed just after I turned 18 with BPD. I have auditory hallucinations (voices). I derealize and depersonalize a lot of the time. I have downed my meds from 6 to 4 but idk they're working as much as they could be so I can sort of relate on a small level. Not the drugs part. Tbh I would have had been able to, had I had access to them a long time ago when I was in a dark place. All I can say is honest work with your therapist if you have one, patience, and hope is what you can do to help your recovery. I know it sucks. Sucks big time. But we are merely bent, not broken. Recovery is always possible!!