My wife is going on a road trip with her crush

My wife is going on a 2 month road trip with a guy she obviously has a crush on. Just them two. I can’t stop her, we’re not even living together right now. But I think she’s going to cheat on me (If she hasn’t already). What am I supposed to do? Keep in mind this is the love of my life, and I’m still hopelessly in love with her. 😭😭😭 During my latest “episode” she said to me, and i quote: “why do you think I like hanging out with Chris and not you?” Also, he’s paying for everything for her. This is the SAME man that almost talked her into filing for divorce this past January. While he was still her boss. Also, she told me he’s making her “dream of a lifetime” come true. What am i supposed to do with that??