Struggling with Mood Swings

I feel like the universe tries to balance out my mood… My happiest days are always my saddest. One minute I’m smiling at the sunset then the next I’m isolating myself and looking for the tallest accessible buildings and quickest ways to go. I finally started becoming friends with a few people and we had our first real hang outs all together… a day later I’ve convinced myself that they hate me and just don’t have the heart to tell me how awful and annoying I am. I was on a good mood so, inspired, I pulled out my laptop to write. I couldn’t get a single word down. Nothing felt right. I feel wrong. Unfixable.