Navigating Dating and Socializing with Asexuality and Mental Health Issues

Um are we the same person? Lol thats me to a T! I say I'm a gray ace, go look at the asexuality.org I think it use to be called aven but looking through their information helped me. But I'm still not positive. I didn't have sex until I was 26 years old. And have only made out with people when drunk before then I never really seek it out or crave it, I do find people attractive but it's nothing I want to act on really. When out with friends they would say stuff about hot people and I would just be like yea I would cuddle them so hard! Lmao but actually up to age 24ish I never even liked being touched i wouldnt even sit close to people on the couch and not even things like hugs I gave my sister a hug for Christmas one year it was that rare lol. But at times i have wanted to be sexual not necessarily have sex but it was when i was with an ex of mine however it was extremely rare like maybe once or twice a year maybe! And I feel like I'm just better not being with anyone ever because it's not fair to the other person not just the lack of sex but I'm also super introverted and like my alone time so I would go weeks without talking to him and months without seeing him and he was legit just asking to see me at least once a week and I couldn't do it and I don't want to do that to people so I chose to be alone the depression and anxiety don't help either just makes me secluded myself even more :/

I've been struggling with whether I'm a asexual or bisexual. I dont crave sex. Ever.

I relate so hard to this post. All I can say is we need to keep pushing forward. The good has to come back at some point to good people 🙏. I'm sorry your hurting and I wish I could take that pain away. I wish I had more advice but I don't because I relate to the struggle. We just gotta hang on and doing what we can to be our best selves we can be. 💕

It's really difficult at first to date and become comfortable with a person with all these factors working against you. You have to remind yourself that you're not a burden at all! Whoever made you feel that way is so wrong. I know how difficult it is, I've been there. My advice is just to think of all the reasons why you should and let go of all the reasons why you think you shouldn't. Because those reasons are nothing compared to what could lie in your future. I promise!! Once I just let myself be open and started showing my true self to people I meet, I felt so much more comfortable in life. I know it's way easier said than done but your first step could even be to wear an outfit you normally wouldn't wear outside (personally). Becoming confident and comfortable in yourself is key to being comfortable with another person. That was a lot of words at once but I hope you take something from it. 💕