Struggling with Motivation and Guilt

Hey! I totally get it. I’m in the same place. It feels like if I’m not at my worst, then somehow my progress and diagnoses aren’t valid. Sometimes I wonder if Im lying about having depression and anxiety, even though I definitely am still learning to manage it. And I always will be learning how. I promise, not everything is black and white. It’s not about how much you’re suffering, but how much you’ve grown while working to improve. People just forget to give us credit for that, and they forget the strength that people like us have (that they have never needed to find within themselves yet). I know how brave you are. Don’t forget that you’re brave to keep moving. It’s so impossible to look at myself and say, “you’re enough just where you are.” And it’s hard to remember it, too. You’re a fantastic individual with _evidence_ of your own growth! Little steps, right? I’m really excited for when you can see how amazing you really are.

I thought things was going well to. Then I had a impulsive anger episode. Idk I should name my episodes. It lead to me quitting my job, having a useless argument with my significant other, and then end up with total regret the next couple of days. I told myself “WTF is wrong with me? Why am I like this?”