Struggling with Anxiety and Love

Somethings I feel that I wanna see if anyone else feels them too: - when I have a presentation or have to do something infront of the class I go into immediate shock, I feel “high on life” best way to put it. During the whole thing even if attention isnt on me I feel like everyone’s looking at me. I feel like I could be sitting or standing weird, I don’t know where to look, idk what to do with my hands. Everything feels judged and I get SO anxious it takes everything from me And then the whole day I’m so quiet. - no motivation to do things for myself like even fill my Brita but I can do everything for other people. Especially my dog. Her food & water is always filled & I’m fine to go to a store to get things for my dog but for myself it’s impossible. I even buy her cute outfits and toys and everything & no anxiety with that!!! But I can never go into a store by myself for myself. Another example: I’m always capable of getting out of bed and into work on time, I work so hard, do everything I have to do and mroe, keep everything spotless. But at home it’s so hard to motivate myself to even fold a blanket or make my bed. - another thing: so when it comes to ~love~ or even just relationships w friends/family I feel as though I’m so compassionate & put so much love & thought into everything I do for others & I feel like peoples brains don’t work like that. Like people are nice & loving, yes. But like when others hurt it literally hurts me to. Like if that makes sense. & when it comes to relwtionships I feel like I’m always like “ok why wouldn’t they think of my feelings” “I’d never do that” etc. I feel like I have so much love to give & I’ll never meet a man that’s loving like that too idk