Looking for someone who understands my struggles with mental health

Diagnosed as bpd and anxiety along with a host of others. Including main diagnosis of schizoaffectuve bipolar 1. Is very difficult to find any one to relate because as long as I'm medicated everyone says you don't look sick . I keep a mask handy go wear if I have to be seen because I can't be seen . I an invisible. No one knows the true me. I've isolated to the point I leave my house 2 times a month just to see my Dr's to get my meds. Now with telehealth appointments sometimes I don't see outside my front door for 2 or 3 months at a time. Noone knows about that lonely pain. The pain of not being sane