Hi I just wanted to have a little rant, I just wanted to...

Hi I just wanted to have a little rant, I just wanted to to write it out and be able to share and not hold it in. It’s really long, i didn’t mean to go so in depth, you can scroll past this one. I just wanted to write it out that’s all, no really worried about getting advice. I really don’t know who to tell about this because my friend groups are all merged in some way together so if I tell one person, there’s a high chance the person I was talking about will find out. My main group has 4 people on in not including me. They’ve been friends since elementary and now two of them are in college and the other two are in high school along side me. I meet the two younger ones, I’ll just name them A and B for convenience. B and I were in classes but not supper close, and I’ve only meet A once or twice through B. But that was in middle school. I didn’t talk to them since 8th grade, not even in Freshman year. But then the pandemic happened and during the time I had lost the friends I had made from freshman year. Junior year comes around and I have a class with B. We end talking and I have lunch with them, with C and D. Now im in senior year and I don’t know why but I feel so left out from them. And sometimes A acts very aggressive towards me, I don’t like it. But I brush it off because we have this back and forth type “mean” jokes. But sometimes her demeanor is so rude. She really brings my mood down when she goes “No?” In such a disgusted tone or a “What?” When I’m asking about something. I feel like I don’t fit in but I don’t have anyone. And it’s just a gross feeling in my stomach. I just don’t know what to do because they’re the only people I have and rely on. I’ve put too much to leave now.