i get REALLY nervous around lots of people like one time i guess i went into an emotional flashback w/out knowing that sent me into a panic attack, my ocd lost it because the bed was so dirty, i thought if i fell off the bed i would die so i sat there crying until my mom found me & fixed the bed & fed me multiple bowls of cereal, i was at a party the house was packed, absolutely awful, it was like watching myself be a kid again just scared & abandoned, i read that it's your brain reliving stuff that was so traumatic you just shut down when it happened so you have to process it after the fact, fascinating but extremely unpleasant if unprepared :(((

I feel you!! Thank you for sharing this. mine is “chronic” (idk if I’m using that word correctly? essentially it’s just the way things have always been for me and it doesn’t go away) so while it doesn’t only come up around people, it definitely becomes more debilitating around people! Especially those I care about too. I’m sorry you’re experiencing that - Happy to message with you if you want to talk about it 💛