Dealing with Infertility as a Single Person

I'm single and can't afford IVF so I found a few different donors online over the last 3 years. They all have had success in the past. The longer I get negative results The more frustrated I get I've stopped trying a few times and for whatever reason once I told them I was taking a break for a while they kind of stop talking to me entirely, so then I have to go through and find another one when I was ready to try again. I'm just so terrified of going to the doctor and finding out that I'm not able to and the fear of the stigma is a large part of it because I am trying as a single woman with no income to become pregnant. I don't want a doctor to talk down to me and tell me what I should have shouldn't do I just need to find out If I'm even able to but I don't know that I'll be able to handle it.

💕 💕 💕 Thanks for replying. Your response means a lot.

Yes I am infertile and I've never been married. I agree we get dismissed because they assume we don't want children. It's heinous because the trauma it does to your psyche is the same regardless of your relationship status. I could even argue it's even more traumatic once the depression of being unable to conceive sets in because you actually start to believe no man will want you because of it. I was able to process the emotions several years ago but still remember very clearly how it felt to be "less than a woman". I try to focus on being grateful because God blessed me with one child before my ability was taken. It was severe complications from a botched c-section that took it from me. I do my best to remember how blessed I am because I've experienced motherhood. ❤️