Struggling to Stop Self Harming

The fear of infection. I have medical anxiety so the idea of it getting infected quite literally stops me in my track. Imagine how much harder life would be if you had to get your arm amputated. Plus I know if I do I might try to c/mmit and I love my family and long term boyfriend and cat too much to leave them. I have watched videos of people’s families grieving after losing someone and I know I could never do that to them even if I may resent them for making me stay. Other than that I’ve completely gotten rid of anything I could use to hurt myself so even when I have a strong urge I go searching and quite literally cannot find anything to do it with (sorry if this was like completely unhelpful or triggering)

For me after 5 years of self harming I realized that it's a losing game you feel better during/after it but then you feel terrible causing you to self harm again and breaking the cycle is unbelievably hard but with the right support system it can be made a bit easier.

What helped me the most is to get a close friend in the picture, so that every time I feel the need I call her to come to be with me.. Don't stay alone with this..