Struggling with an Eating Disorder: Need Help

Hey there! It sounds like what you are going through is so so difficult :( I encourage you to spend more time with your boyfriend and his family after dinner, and try not to go straight to the bathroom. As well as this, remember a time in your life that you felt like you can do anything- a huge accomplishment. Remember how you felt during that victory. Surely if you experienced that succuss, and felt victorious at that time, you can keep down your next meal. And hey, maybe you could switch up the protein bar with some meat...slowly take steps forward. Remember that time you felt accomplished, and carry that into the eating. Right down a list of hobbies and people/things you can reach to when you are stressed about what you ate and if you want to purge. If you keep going down the route you are going down, things will get very hard...try to get a jump start on it! You can do this!

I’m going through something similar, I gained a substantial amount of weight in a short period of time and now I’ve fallen back into unhealthy patterns to lose it. If you need to talk, I’m here