Feeling Like an Imposter in My Own Clothes

Literally I base my clothing, hair, makeup, and even scent choices off of how I'm feeling each day. I don't deal with it as much anymore since I work most days in the food industry with somewhat of a uniform always really early in the morning, but if I put something on and it doesn't feel right when I see it, it has to be changed until it matches who I am that day. I work through this now by asking my partner if it looks good and that will usually be enough to satisfy me. Esp if I'm in a hurry and don't have time to redo what I've done. When I was a teen I didn't have a full length mirror so I would ask my brother 😂 Also now I just really try to think through all my options before I even try, and just imagine them one by one to feel them out without having to feel that itching as hard. I literally have a bunch of different scents that I love but differently on different days, and if I'm going to wear one, I'll go through and sniff them first to see which one I'm feeling that day otherwise I'll be in a weird mood the whole time. I don't think people who don't experience this could understand it or really take it seriously so it's nice to be here.

honestly yeah.. I wish I didn't experience this.. I hate how fast my world can just become complete chaos.. and it's my mind that does it.