Childhood Vows: Coping with an Unpredictable World

I vowed to respect others, have self control, and understand my mind while understanding others.

I vowed to be different. I actually don't think I vowed it to myself. I just have felt since I was a child that I should stand out. I feel bad about myself if I'm not different from the general population. I might be a narcissist, because for the longest time I have felt angry when the world doesn't adapt to me, rather than me adapting to it. I was once told that I'm going to have to suck it up and bend to what the world wants. That I will do anything and everything to be different and then expect to have room made for me, which isn't how it works. And they were right. But I want to be noticed. I want to be liked and known and loved more than other people. I have a constant and desperate hunger for attention.

I vowed to be nice to everyone. E.g. Treat other people how I want to be treated. I was bullied, used, and abused as a child growing up into an adult that I would or could never do it to someone else.

I vowed to be me no matter what. To not let people change me or box me in with titles or labels.