Breaking Point: When Did You Realize You Needed Help?

tw: overdose I knew I needed help for my addiction when the girl I was using with died because of pills that I gave her. Unfortunately that's been a pattern with me, something extremely traumatic has to happen before I seek help:/. Trying to work on that

tw suicide: when I was 12 and I made a plan to kill myself. 6 years later and I'm still not doing good. Tomorrow I'm checking myself into outpatient treatment

tw: self harm it was not on my own volition lol but i ended up in the ER for cutting and my mom decided to finally admit i had a problem and had me take therapy

When I was 12, my older brother OD'd while my parents were out of town and I dealt with everything on my own. I had so many emotions that self injury was the only way to control something in my life. I slowly started not going to school, fighting with my parents more. My first boyfriend around age 15 was super abusive and when we broke up told the whole school how I was suicidal and self injured. That catalyst cause me to have multiple suicide attempts and landed myself in the mental hospital for the last year of high school

I just want to take this moment to let you all know that you guys are here, alive and doing better for yourselves and I appreciate you all sharing your experiences with me. You’re heard, you’re loved, and even if you’re just living, that’s enough. ❤️❤️❤️

I told my therapist what I had done the past few days and she wouldnt stop asking me how I was alive and in front of her. Really hits hard when the only person who seemed to care about it was super blunt.

My first trip to psych ward. I never realized how bad it was until I went and had people constantly telling me I was in need of serious help.

When I realized I couldn’t keep myself safe anymore. I was constantly in and out of the hospital and it was starting to become a problem and get in the way of my life. It still took me awhile after that before I finally accepted it but it took being in the hospital alone for me to realize I had to start trying to make a change

My therapist has been really gentle about everything. I specifically told her I didn’t want to go somewhere and she moved on. She uses “parts” to help reconcile emotions and where they may have started. A lot of the way she phrased things made me realized I didn’t even know how I truly felt about my trauma. Definitely don’t force it if you don’t feel ready tho! You have to be willing to dive into those parts of yourself into to reprocess them!

My therapist has requested for me to start doing EMDR with them but I’m afraid of my own emotions.

When it started getting in the way of my daily life. I think one day I just got fed up with not feeling able to hang out with friends because I was worried about being triggered. That’s when I decided to try EMDR