Dealing with Childhood Trauma and Unsupportive Family

I've experienced abuse over the course of a year or more from two different people in my family almost back to back. I was 7 when the first years started and it didn't stop until I got an ipod when I was 10 or so and texted the person and told him that I'd tell our parents. The second was from 11 or 12 to 13 or something like that, and I ended up doing the same thing. Both were horrible experiences in different ways and I will never feel safe again. One of them did it at night and the other did it during the day. One of them unlocked the door to my room and the other did it when I was outside of it. Both times when my parents found out, they told me to forgive and stop being so mean to them. The first person got sympathy because he confessed on his own and said that he felt immense guilt. So because of that, I'm supposed to forgive him. I'm supposed to feel bad for him because he experienced trauma of his own. Like what he and the other one did won't haunt me for the rest of my life. I didn't even acknowledge anything that happened until I was forced to by his confession. He legitimately just retraumatized me because him doing that brought up so many repressed memories and feelings and now I feel worse than when it actually happened because now I know how wrong it was and I feel so much shame and disgust and it feels like it's my fault for not knowing what was happening and for not stopping it immediately.