Losing Friends and Coping with Loss

I’m honestly a loner I lose friend every year especially a special friend which, I call her my childhood best friend since , we grew up as baby. Our moms is best friend and that’s when I found out I could really have someone I can trust and bond forever til we get older in the future. But, things has changed since we are in are 20s which I literally understand something you expect it will be the same but, bonds won’t last long forever. I’m going through depression at the moment because I think about her in no homo way and also this month and next month and also my birthday month November will be a year of my uncle and cousins passed from Covid and heart stroke. It feel so different without them and all my family and myself we dearly and though of them every single day. I just feel like I’m alone and I don’t have friends.