Coping with PTSD after domestic violence

I understand. My PTSD stems from my childhood and my ex-husband. I have tried to end it all but obviously was unsuccessful. Thank goodness! All I know to tell you is to do what makes you happy. I used to think this was so selfish but now I think of it as self-care. Have you gone to a psychiatrist or therapy? That helped me as well. As far as the medication, sometimes it takes a while to get to a therapeutic level. Ask your doctor so you know what to expect. As far as those times when you are feeling suicidal, have a back-up plan. A friend you can call, a hobby that will take your mind off things, or simply try calling a hotline. I know the hotlines sometimes take forever, that's why it's important to have other things as backup. Write in a journal. These are all things I learned in therapy. Sometimes, nothing seems to work. That's when I write a letter to myself (or someone you love) about why I shouldn't do anything drastic. Music. Exercise. Anything to distract. Hopefully that medication helps and kicks in soon. Much love.