pastelfreckle

175d

so.. recently I've done a lot I'd research on autism, and I'm shocked by the amount of symptoms and things that I relate to. I haven't really told anyone besides my best friend my thoughts, and I was wondering if anyone here thinks they may be undiagnosed autistic, but are hesitant or afraid to get diagnosed? because I am.. I've read that autisic girls are most commonly misdiagnosed with ADHD, and I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was 3 haha.
sooo TLDR; I believe I might be high functioning autistic and I'd love to talk about my symptoms with anyone who has some insight!
thank you all and have a great day! ♡

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  • Alliekatt

    175d

    I've worked with a lot of Autistic youth so might be able to help, at least point you in the right direction

    • pastelfreckle

      175d

      I would really appreciate that! can I dm you? 🥺

  • OGScientist

    175d

    I kind of relate, but I feel paranoid and think I may be wrong.

    • pastelfreckle

      175d

      same here. I always get paranoid that I'm gaslighting myself, or that I just want to be or something, but i genuinely relate so much to a lot of the things I've seen and read. what kind of stuff do you relate to though, and why do you think you may be wrong?

  • OGScientist

    175d

    partially because I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 instead of my adhd concerns being taken seriously. I was then diagnosed after I insisted on a test almost a year later after my first thought I might have it. I've been dismissed for a long time, so autism feels far fetched now. In terms of symptoms I can relate to, I'd say impulsivity. I also used to self-harm, and I sometimes have persistent repetition actions, which ive been told could be OCD. As an adult, I've also developed a learning disability, few things interest me, I have problem paying attention. I have depression, anxiety, sensitivity to sound because it overwhelms me sometimes. I also get this facial tic at times but it's rare. Hbu?

    • OGScientist

      175d

      @pastelfreckle

    • OGScientist

      175d

      Sorry I replied in the wrong place lol

  • Judicai

    175d

    I am by no means a hypochondriac but I swear... When I get to reading symptoms about any illness some how I feel I have the symptoms lol like restless leg syndrome... Personally when I was younger there was no such thing as half these conditions they are glorifying. Sometimes I tell myself to cut back on research and reading... Too much of anything could be bad for ya. Ijs

    • pastelfreckle

      175d

      aaahhh I feel you! I cut back on mine too because I was kinda obsessing over it. almost everything I would read to would resonate with me so much. and then, just the idea that my brain has worked differently than most of the people around me my whole life without me knowing is trippy to me! but pretty cool, albeit a bit scary. idk, I kinda wanna know about what's happening in there, but also like not knowing.

  • Arctic

    175d

    ADHD and autism are pretty commonly comorbid, so there's a chance you have both, not just one or the other! at the very least it's very common to have some traits of the other since symptoms overlap a bit. I got diagnosed with autism at 18, but had suspected I could have had it a year or two prior to being tested. autistic AFABs present quite differently to autistic AMABs, so definitely check out those differences. though you may already have. take your time, there's no rush. talking with other autistic people could probably help a lot, so this post was a great step!

    • Arctic

      175d

      forgot to add: as an autistic AFAB, I'm free to discuss this with you if you want! though I may not be able to help much in regards to childhood signs as I don't really remember much about how I acted as a kid lol.

      • pastelfreckle

        175d

        thanks so much for your reply! I'd love to talk to you more! I've suspected it for about a year now. I have checked out a bit the differences between AFAB and AMAB in relation to autism and that's part of what started to convince me! I think my childhood made me amazing at masking, and reading peoples emotions (by necessity). I've always had to practice my expressions and inflections and it's become second nature to make the correct face for what emotion I'm trying to convey. I consciously do it, but it's not like overtaking because it's just one of the thought paths happening. if I happen to be tired and dont make my expression and voice match my emotion, it comes out flat and I get weird looks by the people who know me haha idk like I said its second nature at this point, and I just barely realized recently that not everyone has to do that. I thought every human had to do that, but I guess it just comes naturally to most. that's crazy to me, but pretty cool.

  • pastelfreckle

    175d

    wow I'm so sorry that happened. that's honestly one of my biggest fears, not being taken seriously after finally opening up like that. I understand the struggle with self harm.. I understand a lot of those actually! I've been struggling with ADHD and anxiety forever, and recently I've realized that I reallllyy relate with symptoms of depression, autism, and OCD. I dont know how I dodnt realize before, I've always thought most of my actions/thoughts/quirks were normal and that everyone had them and did them, but I cant have the volume on the tv be something like 26 or the number 26 will just go 2626262626262626 in my head till I make it 25 or 27. I've always had this, among a billion other random things that make me feel this sense of impending doom.

    • pastelfreckle

      175d

      @OGscientist

      • OGScientist

        175d

        ME being obsessed with doing things in 3s lol I've also been having the same realizations as you, but I'm afraid to even ask about the autism tbh.

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