kc123

107d

long story short, I'm in the last leg of grad school and writing my final essay. today I had some pc issues and thought my essay got lost. thankfully I was able to recover it, but those hours of "oh fuck" were the straw that broke the camels back and I honestly haven't felt this bad or broken since corona first started (which was another awful time for my mental health). I keep going from empty to in a good mood, to sad and stressed again and I can't bring myself to finish the damn essay, but I've also reached the point where I just want to turn the fucker in and get it off my chest. I almost disassociated/derealed a bit and my suicidal ideations have gone way up. like im honestly wondering if I should check myself in somewhere. i know I won't do anything, since im deeply afraid of death but I'm just so rough rn

Anxiety (Including GAD)

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

Suicidal ideation

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  • Brooke.pilch

    107d

    I am so sorry you are going through this. Grad school, wow... you are a champ for getting through this. School is no joke. I am a tutor at a college. For reading and writing actually! It's my job to work with students and get them through their essays. I can guarantee you that you are NOT the only one. And this essay does not deserve to get the best of you 💛 Please feel free to directly message me if you need any help... as a friend, as a listener, as a tutor, whatever you need sweet soul. Please, don't let this essay (that I'm sure is wonderful) take your happiness.

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